Odin spoke to me last night as I was concerned; contemplating a situation monetary situation. I had dropped into fear and one of my new habits is to move things out of my body by cleaning so rather than staying in the fear. I got up and cleaned the kitchen, cleared off the counters and made some space. While I was doing so a found a small amethyst point did somehow fallen behind one of the electronic gadgets in my kitchen. Interestingly enough I had been seeking a remedy a crystal remedy for anger and of course my research showed amethyst was exactly that.
But more than that I had found solace in movement and creating space once again. Having spent the week frustrated with vertigo. I recognized the noise going round and round in my head was spinning me out as I worried about what might be wrong with my physical body. Fortunately, I had also spent time focused on miracles. One of the biggest miracles that I’ve received is my ability to use my intellect.
At the time of my awakening, I thought I had lost my mind and at that time I had also associated my mind with my intelligence, with my intellect. Fortunately, my guides and my intuitive senses knew not to follow intellect into the abyss. I believe that’s why Odin spoke to me last night as I settled in, after moving the energy out of my body, to drop into meditation. I sought that peaceful space.
In the Kabbalah, the tree of life, there is a hidden temple. The hidden temple of knowledge can only be found by crossing the path of the abyss. Many contemplations have I asked which eye is it that Odin has given up? Even my research gets a riddling answer, “Whichever one I please”. Odin is the magician. Perhaps it neither.
It’s not so much that Odin necessarily gave up an eye is the answer that I get this morning It’s more of a metaphor, a wink perhaps, that in order to reach understanding Odin had to leave knowledge and wisdom behind.
The path through the Kabbalah the tree of life begins at Kether, the crown. After moving through the crown into wisdom at the second temple with Raziel it’s very tempting to stay. It was in this place that I remained for a very long time. I wanted to stay and hang out with Raziel, to have divine wisdom at my hands, at my fingertips always.
But there is danger in staying too long in the temple of wisdom. You get kicked into the abyss when you begin to believe that wisdom and knowledge are the same. When one begins to defend that knowledge with the ego, the temple of wisdom disappears. In order to gain understanding one must empty the mind of all wisdom and knowledge. One must be free to drop deeper within. One must be open to believing this is the true path to understanding.
Archangel Tzaphkiel presides over the temple of understanding, Binah. I’ve seen Cassiel at Binah, perhaps as a protector since he returns those who are wandering through the abyss, the orphans, to the path. I’ve had great difficulty in connecting with Tzaphkiel. Perhaps that’s the message carried by my swollen left eye. I am seeking the wrong form of understanding. In the words of St. Germaine – I seek not to be understood but to understand, perhaps I have been seeking understanding with the goal of being understood. This is the battle of the ego.
There are some who say that Zaphkiel is the Archangel of spiritual strife, the war against evil for anyone who is on this spiritual path, as you are well know, the true war is always with self. Archangel Tzaphkiel will walk with you but as will any of the archangels she will only walk so far. As I enter her temple, she reveals only this truth: The path to true understanding lies within you and once again I find myself walking the abyss.